Friday, August 21, 2009

From hero, to zero

What will you do to someone that you really love and respect, if she changed into someone that you don't even recognize? I know this woman, she used to be my everything. I used to cry on her shoulder, laugh out loud, play pillow fight and those other silly games with her. I used to share everything with her, sad, silly, even spooky stories. She never care about perfection, and that's why I used to see her as a perfect woman. I considered her as a perfect woman, because she knew how to deal with me. She never let me down, even when she's furious. She used to know the right way to warn me, she used to know how to bring me back to laughter.
But now, she changed. Now, all that she care about is perfection. She's trying to fit me in her stupid perfect box. Do this, do that, don't do this, don't do that, that's good, that's not good. God, I'm freaking tired! What am I to her? Her little robot who will do all the things that she wants me to do? Well I'm not that type of girl. I'm not gonna let anyone to take control of myself.
I tried my best to make her proud, but I'm never gonna be good enough for her. Cause she'll keep asking for more. Now, she thinks that I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do. And later, I bet she'll ask me to stop doing those things. What is that? She doesn't even know me anymore. But she keep acting like she knows every single thing about me. Nothing's gonna change the things that she said to me. I can't even talk to her right now. Every conversation will always end with a big fight. I'm too tired, I just can't stand another fight. And for heaven's sake, it's driving me insane. And one more thing, i just want you to know. You used to be my hero, but now you're just a very big zero to me.

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